Last year, I was intrigued by Blogher, but I felt myself too new, too little in the blogging world to merit the trip. When I read posts by attendees, I felt kind of left out, along with that teen kind of "I'm a big loser" angst I felt when I was a teen, watching my (significantly hipper and more popular) neighbor go out on Friday night. I felt kind of low for a few days, which seemed ridiculous given that this was a blogging conference we were talking about.
This year I didn't think I was unworthy of attending. I am (mostly) over the feeling that a small personal blog is not a "real" blog. I didn't go because when push came to shove I couldn't bring myself to give myself such an extravagant gift. The conference, the flight, the time away from work and family, all for a blogging conference?
Not that I didn't want to go. I did. And that was before Debbie started harassing er encouraging me to go with her. And fine, I should have gone. I could have even stayed for free with a friend in Chicago. But I didn't and I've been gently kicking myself about it all weekend. Because what if Blogher is so over next year? What if I missed a chance to do something fun for myself? I am not so good at "fun for myself." Hence the difficulty spending money on something so frivolous as a convention for a hobby. OK fine, I should have. And if I can next year, I will. Maybe my new mid year's resolution should be "allow more fun for myself."*
*It is both my hope and fear that people I know in real life will read this, and 10 months from now will hold me to my declaration, as wishy washy as it is.
Monday, July 30, 2007
Ok, you were right. Are you happy now?
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hi. friend IRL/blog-realm checking in to keep you to your commitment as stated in this post.
ReplyDeletealso, Izzy's rounding up people to do a mid-year non-blogher-specific blogger meet-up. let her know you're down widit. we could travel together.
serious.
(now, how's *that* for pushy?)
xo
I only didn't go cuz you weren't going! (though I told missy pushy pants it was the $1000 airfare)
ReplyDeleteSomehow I missed two weeks worth of posts... which is why I am chiming in late here. But I recently had a revelation re spending money on a hobby--it suddenly occurred to me that hey, blogging is pretty much free (if you want it to be), but almost any other hobby you do spend money on. Duh, I know. But it felt freeing.
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